... what makes life exciting? it's the fact that you are given the strength and courage to fight a losing battle... although all you wanted to do is surrender ...

i've been waiting so long
waiting for the past years to return,
as i gaze thru the window
no one is visible, not even a shadow.

i tried to comfort myself,
wipe my cold and drying tears,
trying to dig up the truth,
you are gone, million miles away.

but as i ponder to myself,
my heart keeps asking for something,
that's why, i keep on searching...
but my heart feels nothing.

i will walk those miles and kilometer,
climb those mountains and plateaus,
to tell you and to let you know...
you are my perfect gift,
from God!

... we deny that we are tired, we deny that we are scared, we deny how badly we want to succeed, and most importantly, we deny that we are in denial. we only see what we want to see and believe what we want to believe, and it works. we lie to ourselves so much that we can't recognize the truth right in front of our faces ...