Sometimes, we get scared when we loose the person we loved most. but the truth is, its theire loss, because they left the one person who wouldn't give up on them.

I'm a strong girl who knows how to keep her stuff in line and even when I have tears going down my face I still manage to say those two words - I'm fine.

Getting through each day without hearing your voice is hard to do yet I force myself constantly to do the right thing - to keep holding on and fight all odds even when in fear and alone. You have no clue how much I miss you. It's you, who make me want to smile. You make me want to dance. You make me want to live. Giving me a second chance I deserve.

The Invitation

It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living.
I want to know what you ache for and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing.

It doesn’t interest me how old you are.
I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love for your dream for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon...
I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow if you have been opened
by life’s betrayals
or have become shrivelled and closed from fear of further pain.

I want to know if you can sit with pain mine or your own
without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy
mine or your own if you can dance with wildness
and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes
without cautioning us to be careful
to be realistic
to remember the limitations
of being human.

It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me is true.
I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself.
If you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul.
If you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see Beauty even when it is not pretty every day.
And if you can source your own life from its presence.

I want to know if you can live with failure
yours and mine and still stand at the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon,
“Yes.”

It doesn’t interest me to know where you live or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair weary and bruised to the bone and do what needs to be done to feed the children.

It doesn’t interest me who you know or how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand in the centre of the fire with me and not shrink back.

It doesn’t interest me where or what or with whom you have studied.
I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away.

I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.

oOo

By Oriah © Mountain Dreaming,
from the book The Invitation

So often we expect to be somehow rescued from our loneliness and that can be like waiting for a bus on a corner where buses never stop anymore.

In love, never put yourself in a situation where you are not sure where you stand in a person's life. Never assume, never expect...so that if that person chooses to drop you, you have enough strength to move on.

A heart truly in love never loses hope but always believe in the promise of love no matter how long the term and how far the distance.

I miss the times we used to share...the things we used to do...the conversations we used to have, most of all, it's you that I really miss.

Standing here alone, I wait for you. Never knowing if you'll come. Praying you will. Expecting you to change your mind. I know you love me, but you live with her... some things I can't understand. I probably pray to the wrong gods. Because I don't know if there's a patron saint for woman like me.

Relax...imagine floating like a cork in the water. Open yourself up to the universe and pray that good things come your way. See where it takes you.

I Believe...

That we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.

That no matter how good friends are, they are going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

That true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.

That you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.

That it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.

That you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

That we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

That either you control your attitude or it controls you.

That regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.

That heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequence.

That money is a lousy way of keeping score.

That my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.

That sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down are the ones to help you get back up.

That sometimes when I am angry I have the right to be angry but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

That just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have,

That maturity has more to do with what kinds of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them, and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

That it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to forgive yourself.

That no matter how bad your heart is broken, the world doesn't stop for your grief.

That our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

That just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don;t argue, it doesn't mean they do.

That you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.

That two people can look at the same thing and see something totally different.

That your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.

That even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.

That credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

That the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.

I saw your picture today.

Soulful eyes you have I would say.
Looking through them any price I would pay.
Sketch them in my mind if I had my way.

We all lose our cool sometimes. Something or someone pushes one of our hot buttons and bam! There's a blow up. Usually we feel terrible afterward and apologize. Although apologies are generally accepted, our behavior is rarely forgotten.

I think of you so often though I don't always let you know.

I wish I had an excuse, or even an explanation...but all I can do is offer my apology for not answering you soon...and ask you to try to understand and forgive me.

You will know that you miss someone very much when every time you think of that person your heart beats faster. And just a warm "hello" from that person calm you down.

You somehow manage to be there for me just at the right time at the right moment. You have this uncanny knack of knowing if there's something wrong with me.

For better or for worse, I will decide on what to do with my life.

The one and only spaces in my heart for you could never be filled. What I am really trying to say is that "I love you" and I always will.".

Like a song carried softly on the gentle breeze, your text messages reaches across the miles to give my heart a lift.