a bitter choice

i am struggling to keep my emotions in check. there is the conflict arising from the thinking in me and the feeling past me. my head is not in line with my feelings. both struggle against each other. should i let you go or should i let you stay?

let's not fool ourselves. long distance love affairs are novel-stuff, the kind of storyline you find in three-hankie tearjerkers. you know we're miles apart. neither bridges nor telephone lines are enough to fill the space between us. sparks are not enough to keep the fire burning.

i am not accepting any maybe or maybe not. things must be either black or white, no grays in-between. sometimes we sugarcoat the truth but in the end, we suffer for the lies that we choose to live. there are some things in life you have to jump right in, even if you are afraid. and you must be responsible for your actions - and the repercussions.

i have no bag of religious tricks to make everything turn out well for you. come back if you can, but no promises will be broken for no promises will be made. how can i ask you to stay? love isn't enough, probably freedom is. you see, its easier to say goodbye but never easy to ask someone to stay.